Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The new medication

is kicking my ass. (And juggling the old medication adds to the ass kicking.)

"They" are right: I remember my dreams now. And my dreams are not nearly as violent as they were. I no longer put two hundred bullets through a handgun without changing magazines three feet from my target and he's still functioning, although he's no longer trying to kill me.

I shared that dream with the minders at the VA and they freaked but that's another story.

Now I know that I'm dreaming and the dreams are active, some anxiety-making. (Getting shot at with big stuff for x days in a row apparently has a price.)

Still, I can't complain. The VA are not going to fix me any further (yet another story) but I'm street legal, more or less physically functional, and the pills are free.

So I can't really complain. And compared with some of the patients I see at the Martinsburg hospital, I have no room to. Things are cool.

But good God am I groggy this morning.

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